"I believe there’s a hero in all of us, that keeps us honest, gives us
strength, makes us noble, and finally allows us to die with pride, even
though sometimes we have to be steady, and give up the thing we want
the most. Even our dreams" - (Spiderman 2 movie)

As i wrote this blog entry of mine, I took the chance to use the quote of spiderman 2. I remember that when I heard this.. I said.. "parang ako". That time I am still an aspirant  in a Religious Convent because I want to be a nun. After a year of being graduated in college I decide to enter the convent. Give up my career and follow God’s will. That time I am sure to myself that I want to serve God all of my life, but with the decision that I made. I have to give up my own dreams.. and die with my own self.

Lately I am with the same situation. I have to die with my own self and let go of my own dreams. Because I know that this will be the best choice.. Again I will quote a line from Spiderman 3 "We always have a choice.. we have the chance to choose for the best.".  Most of us .. said that "I dont have the choice but to this.. " . But the truth is we always have the choice. A chance to have a silence and listen to the voice within. To listen to our heart. After I watch the movie I smiled.. like what I’ve said I’ve been through a tough decision that change my life and makes me feel better.
I choose between leaving in the past.. to retain the pain, anger and resentment within me. And Forgiveness… to face the day with a new life, new point of view and a hope that everything will be okay. And i choose to forgive my self and the people who hurt me the most.

"God (Uncle Ben) wouldn’t want us living with revenge in our hearts, it’s like
a poison. It can take you over and turn us into something ugly.
"  Again I quote a line from Spiderman 3. I am so agree with this line, because of revenge we do things that is against to our values and principles. We listen to our hearts.. but this angry heart lead us to misery. We make the wrong decision.. we hurt the one we love because we want to be even. But after we hurt that person. We will see our self, with pain because we know that deep within us. We don’t want to hurt the one we love.

All we need is forgiveness.. all we need is to have some space to think and Pray that God will heal the wounds that we have. To give us the grace of forgiveness. The courage to die on our own self, be humble enough to ask forgiveness and to forgive. And most of all to LOVE again.

God bless…

dhia