People said that Love is lovelier the second time around….

Last night as I lay down on my bed.. i realized something.. and that realization bring me here.

"kung sakaling magmamahal akong muli, at may magiging problema sa relasyon namin. Ipaglalaban ko na ito, dahil ayoko ng mabuhay sa "what if" and "if Only". Nakakapagod ng isipin at sagutin ang tanong na paano kaya kung ipinaglaban ko.. naging masaya kaya kami pareho? Natupad kaya ang mga pangarap namin?" those are the two questions that linger in my mind in the past.

But now I can feel that I am free and my heart is ready to fall in love again… kung sino at nasan siya hindi ko alam.. Maybe a lot of people will say.. talaga lang because maybe they know that I am afraid to fall in love again. Because I can no longer bear the pain of loosing the one I love. But then I realized that I should set my self free.. and it’s time for me to open my heart once again. Time just passes by and I loose all the chances to meet the one that God gave me.

It is early for me to say that I found him… I still have fear with this feelings that I have for Him. I really don’t where it’s going… all I know is that I am happy every time that we talk. Every time he gives time to talk to me, through chat. umaga sa kanila pero he still spends time talking to me. Sharing all his dreams and plans. Talking about anything under the sun. Even our own problems and pains. Like what I’ve said it is too early to say that He is the one. All i know for now is that I am happy ‘coz I have a new found friend in Him. Kung saan man dalhin ang friendship namin. God knows what’s next. Pero sana lang magawa ko pa ring masanay na wala siya sa tabi ko para mawala man siya. Kaya ko pa ring tumayo... but then I decided to conquer my fear.. The fear of being hurt and rejected after all the efforts that I gave.

To you my friend.. thanks.. welcome HOME.