There’s two things I know for sure:
She was sent here from heaven and she’s
daddy’s little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes and
I thank god for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her
hair; "Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it’s my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."
In all that I’ve done wrong I know I must
have done something right to deserve a hug
every morning and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet 16 today
She’s looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world.

But I remember
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; sticking
little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, Daddy, But if you
don’t mind I’m only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I’ve done wrong I must have done
something right to deserve her love every morning
and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by.
Precious butterfly.
Spread your wings and fly.

She’ll change her name today.
She’ll make a promise and I’ll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I’m thinking and I said "I’m not
sure-I just feel like I’m losing my baby girl."
She leaned over…gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk my down the aisle, Daddy-it’s just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don’t cry!"

Oh, with all that I’ve done wrong I must have
done something right.
To deserve your love every morning and butterfly
kisses-I couldn’t ask God for more, man this is what love is.

I know I gotta let her go, but I’ll always remember
every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses.

"i don’t know why, but every time I heard this song… I realized how much I love my dad… that I am so blessed because I have a father who is always there for me…"

I remember when I was still in the convent I always said that being a woman does not mean that you have to bear your own child to be complete. But instead being a woman means you can love and take care of the children around you even though it’s not your own child.

Now I realized that yes, it can be. But for those woman who have the problem and the possibility of not bearing her own child. It’s a crisis… completeness of being a woman does not need to bear her own child.. but the peace of mind that you are capable of bearing it.

It’s a sad thought that a lot of woman killed their own baby.. because they are not ready to have it. They are young, they can not support it.. a lot of reasons. But the bottom line is.. they just ignore the blessing of being a mother. And on the other side of this world is the woman who weep and mourn because they can’t be a Mo’om.
That how they wish.. they can bear their own child… they can experience the blessing of having her own… baby.

At this point of time.. i don’t know what to think.. what i really feel inside… All i know is We.. Woman are born fragile… but by God’s strength.. we become strong inside and out.

To all those woman who can read this.. when the time comes that you became pregnant be happy.. because God gave you this precious gift.. to bear a child and to be a mother. Not all of us have the chance to experience this.. Be proud your one of them.

18 days to go and valentines day will be celebrated around the world.. most of the couple now are busy, thinking of what is the best gift that they can buy and give to their love ones. Most of the guys now made a reservation to their favorite restaurant for their dinner dates. Some will go to Boracay, Baguio and to some teenagers.. they might join the lavapalooza in bay walk.

And maybe on the other half of this planet.. you can find the people who are still searching for their perfect match. Hoping that one day they will be with someone else. But for now, probably this Valentines day. they will just stay at home, listen to the radio (love songs pa ito), or watch movie in her DVD player (romantic movie daw ba ang panoorin!) and later on they will find their self.. crying because they felt that they are alone.

Guys… wait a minute… I am also in the same situation for three years I don’t have someone with me. A special someone or a b.f., i just celebrate my valentines day in the office and with my friends. I admit that i feel sad.. when i saw some younger guys and gals i feel that How I wish I have someone with me. But then I realized that God is still preparing the right guy for me. Someone who is really worthy of my time and my love.

Advance Happy Valentines day

Early this morning i receive a text from a friend " tingnan mo Pre, mas madali ang closure kapag nag-goodbye ka". I just smile and thinks of it… Before I always want to talk to my "ex" and tell him the words that I did not said, tell him what I felt after He left me. I want to say Goodbye because I believe that I have to…, that Goodbye can set me free from the bitterness and the pain that he gave.

And now I realized we said Goodbye a million times, but we always end up together until the time comes that we really have to take a separate ways. He have to go on his own and I have to take my own road. Without saying goodbye… we just have to accept the present situation. Without the formal talk on how about us… what about us. Because that time there’s no such thing as US.. but me and you.

Time passes  by and I still dream that one day we can talk about it.. we can settled things out.. not to disturb him and be with me again. All i want is for him to know what i really felt when i loose him. Most of my friends ask me… what for? He has his own life… No need to settled the issue. You can make it on your own. I don’t believe on it. I still want to talk to my "ex". But until now it didn’t happen.

But wait.. we don’t have a formal goodbyes..! And here I am I move on my own. I just said goodbye on my own.. let go of the pain and the bitterness inside me.  Accept the reality that things change and  I can’t bring back  the past.. all I have to do is to enjoy the present and believe that there’s a better days ahead of me.

I don’t say that we don’t have to say goodbye to the one we love when we have to let him go… we still need it and it is important but we have to have a consideration..
* is he/she is not ready to talk to you and settled things out.. what if he’s still love you but the situation and time is not right… and it will be more complicated.
* do you really have to say goodbye… or you just have to accept the fact that he/she is gone.

guys.. saying goodbye is the saddest and hardest word to say.. but it will set us free.. if we really accept that it is over. But then, if someone says goodbye but you don’t want to accept it.. you will remain in the bitterness and pain. Because you will still hope that one day you will be with each other arms again. (admit it guys)

She is a 24-year old copywriter. He is an architect. They met
and became lovers in college. They broke up last year but
remained to be"friends." They send sweet text messages
and he calls her often to make sure she’s okay. They
still date. They still have sex. They don’t
see anyone else. It is obvious that they still love each other
but when asked about their situation, she doesn’t know the
real score. Even her friends are in the dark. "Parang sila,
pero hindi."

She works in a telecom. He is reviewing for the board.
They are in the same barkada. They talk
on the phone till 4 am. He gives her chocolates, flowers
and CDs even when there is no occasion.

Their friends are suspecting something. Bakit sila
nagsosolo kapag may overnight inuman? Why does he
hold her close on the dance floor?
Bakit sila magkaholding hands lagi? Sila kaya?
"He hasn’t admitted anything," she rants. "But I let him
hug and kiss me. Parang kami, pero hindi."

They work together in an ad agency. After office, they
would watch movie, have dinner and stroll at Glorietta.
She gave him Harry Potter books for his birthday in
exchange for posing as her boyfriend to make an ex jealous.
They made out during the company outing in Subic and
never talked about it. He said "I love you" once but
she wasn’t sure if she heard him correctly because
they were both drunk then. But one thing she is sure
of is her feelings for him. She likes him. And she’s
assuming that with what he’s doing to her and with her,
he likes her, too. There’s just one
hitch: he has a girlfriend!

She is a 28-year-old virgin. He’s a 35-year-old bachelor.
Both mountaineers, they became close during their
climbs. After a few dates in posh restaurants, he brings
her to his condo where  they would make out.

They have been doing this for months. She wants to believe
that "sila na"but then she’s not really sure about it. "We don’t
talk about it but it doesn’t really matter," she’d tell her friends.
"What’s important is I am enjoying this — whatever it is."

The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual
understanding. Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo-boyfriends. Flings.
Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where
the persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers.
Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of
you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You
just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang pormal na
ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa. Pero
sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi.

This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for
different reasons. It can happen after a break-up. You still love
each other, and you want to be with each other but you
broke up for a reason.

And for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna
magkabalikan.

It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong
nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya
kunwa-kunwarian lang muna. Testing lang. Puwede ring hindi
puwedeng magingkayo kasi isa sa inyo –usually the guy
–may ka-relasyon na. Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-break
doon sa girl (sabi niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman
niya ginagawa), wala muna kayong relasyon para
nga naman hindi siya nangagaliwa kasi "hindi naman kayo."

This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun. Lalo na
kung naghahanap ka lang naman ng "kalaro."

Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may patutunguhan kayo kasi wala
talagang kasiguraduhan. So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa
ganitong set up ganoong hindi naman sigurado kung may patutunguhan?

Iba’t ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang. Puwedeng "buti na iyan
kesa wala" or puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom." Meaning, habang
wala pa iyong the real thing, doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian.

For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think
that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all. It
would be fun, if all you are after for is that "kilig" feeling.

Aminado naman ako na once upon a time, may mga pseudo-relationships
din ako. No commitments involved. For the simplest reason that they
couldn’t commit, because they were either committed to someone
else, or that they weren’t ready to commit.

My rationalization, "okay na iyun, kesa wala."

Ang habol ko lang naman, iyong kilig feeling. Iyong merong
nagtatanong kung kumusta araw ko. Iyong merong ka-cuddle
sa beach outing. Iyong kapag tumunog ang cellphone,
mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong galing sa kanya ang message.
Iyong merong laging kasama. Habang wala pa ang the real
thing, puwede na itong pagtiyagaan.

But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship,
the emotions were real. And usually, in this kind of set up, ang
babae lagi ang lugi.

Una, you can’t ask him to commit. Since it’s not really a
relationship, you can’t demand commitment from your partner.
Ano ba kayo?

May K ka nga ba magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be
uncertain about your role in his life. You can’t expect him to be
always there with you. And if you feel jealous of the other girls,
you just have to keep it to yourself. Ano ka ba niya para magselos?

Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him? You can’t be
sure if he feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na
mahal karin niya. Even if you are dying to tell him you love him,
you can’t. Because you’re not sure if he’ll like it. Baka mapahiya ka
lang. This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the
relationship. Or if there is a relationship at all.

Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much? What if you have
invested all your emotions and this man hasn’t? What if you remain
faithful to him, not entertaining other guys, only to find out
that he is seeing other girls?

Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting. When a
disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that
would be the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo
alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship. Wala kang pinanghahawakan.
Kasi sa pseudo-relationship, there is no "us." Meron lang "you and
me," hindi "us."

Buti sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso,
hindi eh. Real pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo-
relationship, hindi mo maiwasan umasang one day, may karugtong
pa rin iyun. And you will be miserable, hoping to bring back what
you used to have, only to find out eventually that the guy is in
another pseudo-relationship with somebody else.

Ang hirap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up for fun and then
you’d end up hurting yourself in the process.

Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh. Puwede naman na
hindi mo muna isipin ang future and just enjoy the feeling,
without thinking of the consequences.

But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the
process, kailangan mo mamili. You can be happy and live the
moment without worrying what would happen next. Or you can
stop settling with pseudo-relationships and wait for the real thing.

When I was younger and in a pseudo-relationship with an unavailable
guy, a friend told me, "Sige, kung ayaw mong magpapigil, bahala ka.
Magpakasaya ka. Pero huwag kang iiyak-iyak pagkatapos, dahil
tatadyakan kita."

Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo.
Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang "parang
kayo pero hindi" stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually,
hanggang doon lang siya… almost, but not quite

Most of the people in our time… is afraid to take the risk!
Afraid to take the risk of being committed… most of us just want to be happy but then don’t want to have a responsibility. Don’t want to take the risk of being attached to someone else..simply because they don’t want to be hurt by anybody else. They don’t want to feel the pain of being left behind… they don’t want to feel the pain of rejection.

I forgot how we ever came this far I believe we had reasons But I don't know what they are So blame it on my heart, oh!

I can still recall the days that I can't understand the people around me because they are talking about LOVE.

They said that they are happy and complete.. it seems that the happiness that they felt will last forever. I doubt it... simply because on the other side of it are the people who cried and said... I thought it would last forever but He/She betrayed me. 

Now that I experience how the so called Love that moves in my life.. I can say that no one can understand how love goes.. 

Why we fall in love with the person who is exactly opposite of the Ideal man or woman that we have. Maybe because there’s no such thing as an ideal man or woman.. It’s all in the mind. Some people might say that because God will choose the person that we will love.. and who willlove usBut hey! Bo Sanchez says.. “We are the one to choose the right partner for us and not God.”

Love moves in a very mysterious ways.. we can’t understand it.. we don’t even know when this so called LOVE came into our life.. the important thing is we are open to love.. to give love and be love by the people around us… 

I admit I have so many fears when it comes to love… but then I realized I should conquer my fear.. and now I am happy….

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