My Gift To You

take one day at a time…  it’s seem so weird last week i just make an article about crossing the lines! and here i am now saying take one step at a time. i am not saying that i don’t want to cross the lines anymore.. but i want to take it slowly… but surely! maybe because before i thought i found the one.. but then i am wrong. he’s not the one.. he’s far from the person that i met before… and i can’t imagine my self being with this person… having different points of views in life, tama nga yung lyrics ng kantang nakapgatataka " hindi ka ba napapagod o di kaya’y nagsasawa sa ating mga tampuhang walang katapusan… napagod ng mga luha, damdamin at puso’y tigang wala ng maibubuga.. wala na akong maramdaman". being with somebody whom I/we know for so long becomes ordinary…. and with the idea that i know him so much… i trust him completely.

and sad to say.. i was wrong… i barely know him..  i don’t have a regret that he becomes a part of my life… it’s juts i’m hurt! because of all the people he’s the one who will broke my trust and my heart. for now… i won’t say goodbye because i know that still he’s a part of me… but not like before… i can’t promise that nothing will change..  damage is already been done.

to you.. thank you.. and maybe.. just maybe one day i can trust you again… just maybe

to all my friends who bear with me in this process.. thank you…love you guys

precious

years just passed by.. and here i am in my room asking my self am i ready to cross the lines…?

to give up the friendship???  and be a lover…. !!! of the man whom i know have a very special part in my life.

i dont want to wake up one day asking myself… of the questions what if and if only…. i dont want to end up being sad, because i did not take the risk.. of being honest to myself and to the one who makes my life complete.

i hope that one day i will have enough courage.. and tell the world that i love this man.. and be proud by being on his side.. achieving our dreams… for us and our family.

Monday

I was so excited to go to school as I’ll be
seeing my suitor & my secret crush, Charlie
again. But then, the whole day he just smiled as
my close guy friend, Carlo cheered me up. He
didnt even talk to me, he just smiled.

Tuesday

I was thinking Charlie might approach me now as
he should since he’s courting me. But then, the
whole day he just smiled as my close guy friend,
Carlo cheered me up. He didnt even talk to me,
he just smiled.

Wednesday

I didnt want to talk to anyone, not even Carlo
who cared so much for me since I was pissed off
of Charlie. As usual the whole day he just
smiled as my close guy friend, Carlo cheered me
up. He didnt even talk to me, he just smiled.

Thursday

I went to school as usual. Carlo kept cheering
me up. I was so pissed that I shouted at him and
told him to just leave me alone. And Charlie?
the whole day he just smiled. He didnt even talk
to me, he just smiled. My close guy friend Carlo
tried to ignore me the whole day.

Friday

I received a note with the words:
"You just don’t know how much I love you,
I know it’s impossible for you to like me,
but I just want to let you know how amazing you
are."
Even though there’s no sign from the sender or
even a name, I was sure it was from Charlie. And
the whole day he just smiled. He didnt even talk
to me, he just smiled. My close guy friend Carlo
tried to ignore me the whole day.

10 years after…

Here I am at my close friend, Carlo’s wedding
with Charlie as my date. I never enjoyed
Charlie’s company, Carlo still rocks my socks.
But it was too late, he’s getting married. And
besides, he’s too good for me. He would never
love a person like me.

Before the ceremony, Carlo went up to me and
asked, "What is that paper you’re holding?"
It was the note from Charlie, 10 years ago,
"Oh, the love letter from Charlie saying how much he
loved me. It’s been 10 years, you know."
Then, Carlo bowed his head and tears fell from
his eyes and said, "You just dont know how
much I love you. I was the one who gave you that note
10 years ago. It wasnt Charlie. I wanted to tell
you in person, but I was afraid you’d reject me
and our friendship forever. I was too afraid to
lose you."
I started to cry. I just said, "I loved you
too. All this time, it was you. But I thought that
you only see me as this friend."
Carlo whispered to me, "I’m sorry. It’s too
late." and he went back to his soon-to-be
wife
as Charlie asked me what happened.
"It all ends today." and I just cried.

thank you….

i am so blessed to have you in my life… someone who thought me bout life, love and long journey that i will take. it been so long since were together.. i can only hear our laughter from the memories of the past. but then thank you because somehow you complete my life. and now that we have our own life… we go on seperately… i know that you are a part of me…. and i become who i am because of you…

dhia

In Another Lifetime

Gary Valenciano

I could hold on for a hundred years

When all else is gone I would still be here

In a memory of things yet unseen

I’d remember all that we’ve never been

And i cannot wait to see

What life has in store for me In another lifetime

It would be forever In another world

Where you and i Could be together

In another set of chances I’d take the one’s i’d missed

And make you mine

If only for a time My life would matter In another life

And i’d stay as strong and i’d stay as true

And you’d have forever now to think it through

Coz i do believe what wasn’t meant to be

Wasn’t meant for now and Someday you’ll see

In a place and time we never know

I’d be standing there waiting for you

You would be mine

But until that time is now I’d be holding on somehow

But until that time I’ll be holding onto forever Until another life