Sept. 25, 2005, 4:30 pm the exact date and time… the day that i left the convent and go back to the cruel world… the real world… it’s been a year. I experienced different joys, sorrow, struggles and success. But i never felt that i am alone… i always walk with God and the people that he send to me, to be my companion. My family and friends who is always there to understand and support me… sa lahat ng kakulitan, tigas ng ulo at sa mood swings ko. Lalong lalo na sa mga pinagdadaanan ko…. Thank you!

One year and it’s seems that is so long… parang ang tagal ko ng nagtatanong kung saan ba talaga ako? One year… at magulo pa rin ang utak ko.. maybe becase in one year… sinasara ko din ang puso ko… natatakot masaktan ulit… natatakot magbigay ng sarili.. dahil hindi ganun kadali ang gawin ito. Isang taon… at marami rin akong pangarap na binubuo at nabubuo.. pero bakit may kulang? Bakit hindi ako ganon kasaya? Bakit may hinahanap ang puso ko na hindi ko makita?

Maaring sa ibang tao… ang isang taon ay matagal na para malaman nila kung saan nga ba sila… pero para sa akin… ang isang taong nagdaan ay sapat lang para harapin ko ang mga bagay na pilit kong tinakasan noon… at ngayon na unti-unti ko na siyang nahaharap at naaayos…. hahayaan ko na lang ulit na ang Diyos ang humawak ng orasa at panahon ko… ng schedules ko… and let it happen IN HIS TIME.

Marami pang puwedeng mangyari… marami pang saya at lungkot ang pagdadaanan ko sa paglalakbay ko. Maybe in one point i will stumble again and fall… but then like before.. i will STAND again… learn fromy my mistakes and start another day. With a new hope and faith that i can make it.. because God is with me… and you guys… my Family and friends around me.

FOR GOOD You’re the only friend I’ve ever had. And I’ve had so many friends. But only one– that mattered. (sings) I’ve heard it said That people come into our lives for a reason Bringing something we must learn And we are led To those who help us most to grow If we let them And we help them in return Well, i don’t know if i believe that’s true But i know i’m who i am today Because i knew you… Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun Like a stream that meets a boulder Halfway through the wood Who can say if i’ve been changed for the better? But because i knew you I have been changed for good … It well may be That we will never meet again In this lifetime So let me say before we part So much of me Is made of what i learned from you You’ll be with me Like a handprint on my heart And now whatever way our stories end I know you have re-written mine By being my friend… Like a ship blown from its mooring By a wind off the sea Like a seed dropped by a sky bird In a distant wood Who can say if i’ve been changed for the better? But because i knew you… Because i knew you… Because i knew you I have been changed for good… And just to clear the air I ask forgiveness For the things i’ve done you blame me for But then, i guess we know There’s blame to share And none of it seems to matter anymore [they sing simultaneously] Like a comet pulled from Orbit/as it passes a sun/ Like a stream that meets a Boulder/ half-way Through the wood Like a ship blown off its Mooring/by a wind off the Sea/ like a seed dropped by a Bird in The wood Who can say if i’ve been changed for the better? I do believe i have been changed for the better And because i knew you… Because i knew you… Because i knew you… I have been changed for good. People that we met along our journey puts a mark in our life.. some of them become a part of our history… some just passes by. And the important thing on this is.. they help us to become a better person… and i am so thankful that you become a part of my life.