there are billion of people around the world who is looking for their hapinness in material things, power and wordly matters without even realizing that the only thing that they are looking for is LOVE. like anybody else i realized that i am also looking for love, not because no body loves me. but because i realized that i am so tired that i am always on the pedestal.. the safe place… i am just a friend. before i always said that it is better for me to be on the pedestal than being with the arms of the one i love but now knowing until when. i always want to be on the safe place, i am a friend and no matter what happen he will count on me… the girlfriend will be lost but not me because i am a friend.

but i am just a friend… not the one he loves, not his priority… last night i even ask my bestfriend… what’s wrong with me…"mahirap ba akong mahalin". and he said "hindi pinipigilan mo lang silang ipakita na mahal ka nila". and he’s right… i am looking for love but then i am afraid to be hurt by someone.

well that is the irony of love… and now i know that somebody makes me smile but i dont even know if he feels the same…natatakot na kasi akong umasa, dahil mahirap umasa ng walang aasahan".

I hope one day i will find myself.. free from the fears that i have right now… i just need a big push on my part…. love is taking the risk and i hope that i can take the risk again… to be happy.

Love… the most beautiful gift that anyone can give to anybody… but to love is to take the risk of being hurt… maybe losing the one you love in the end because not all love stories ends with they leave happilly ever after… most of the time we are afraid to take the risk of falling in love because of the past that hunts us… but we should take the risk of being in love… "dahil sabi nga nila, para ka na ring patay pag hindi ka nagmahal"

Not all love stories end with
"…and they lived happily ever after."

Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our control. We have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others.We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pains. Every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It’s something we can’t control,something we had to live up.

It"s over. H’es gone. But life has to go on. Goodbye doesn’t always mean forever.
There will be a place and time where questions will be answered,words will be spoken. letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony,love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled. Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.

my journey…

24 long years… yesterday i celebrated my 24th birthday with my family and friends…and i really feel so blessed to have a beautfilu life. yes i experienced so many ups and downs… but this trials makes me stronger and help me to become whole.

i am so happy when i look back on my journey… the story of my life… i met so many people along the crossroads… some people stay and become my friends and some… just met to give a smile and a simple hi. my journey it so colorful and now as i continuemy journey i dont know what lies ahed of me. all i know is that i am with a loving and caring companion who’s always with me all the time.. my friend, lover and brother.. Father God.

to the people who walks along with me in my journey, thanks.. an di hope that still you will walk with me and be my companion till the end…. we may be apart or near to each other. but then there is the LOVE that binds us together.

thanks… love you all