Let Go and Let God…

On the beginning of my journey as a Postulant the main call for me is to die on my own self… to Let go of my fears, doubts, anxieties and Let GOD move in my life. Mold me like a pot… for he is a potter and I am just clay. The more I experience the pains and hardships of knowing my self..  I learn to love and accept the real me by facing the issues that I have.

But Letting go is not that easy… dying on my own self is really hard.. I realized that every morning God has his own way of knowing my self, forming me into a better person. Teaching me how to be honest to my own self, others and to Him. Facing my issues and digging to my deepest pains help me to be brave and surrender my self to the Good Shepherd who guide and protect and mold me in my journey.

Little by little I learn that knowing, accepting and loving the real me will set me free… make me feel happy and at peace. Make’s me stronger and braver… and most of all I learn to let go of my pains, resentments, anger and hatred and makes me feel free like a bird.

Letting go is hard but trusting God completely help me to Let God work in my life… After six months of being away in the convent I still surrender my self to him, trusting him completely and believing that He had a better plan for me… and everything will happen IN HIS TIME.

As I always said when I am still in the convent Let Go and Let God… and my motto “Let Go and Let God! Let Go of our problems and Let God handle them; Let Go of our pain and Let God heal; Let go of our fears and Let God sustain.”

Let us let go of our baggage and Let God sustain us in our journey believing and trusting him completely that we are with him as he resurrects on the third day and we will be with him in our journey towards his Kingdom.

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this is the three hard process of life…

good bye is the most painful word that a man can tell to someone.. simply because this is the end of everything. the end of the good relationship that you spend with someone, end of reaching your goals, dreams and hopes together. the happy days that you spend together will become a memory of the past but you can’t be with that person in the future.

but life is journey and more often we have to say goodbye and to let go of that person that we walk along the journey… simply because he has his own path and you have your own… you have different ways on reaching your destination. and all you can do is to let her/him go. because you can not hold her hand forever. it’s painful… it will bring you tears… need time and space to heal the wounds of parting your ways. and in the end you still need to let go.

after the goodbye and letting go part… is moving on. we dont have to be stagnant by remembering and holding on the memories that we have. life is a constant journey… there’s always a new day for a new beginning. all we have to do is to stand up pick the pieces again it might not be whole like before but you will be stronger. because everytime that you will see the broken part of yourself is the lesson behind it. and this will be your shield on your journey… as you continue to move on.