last night i’m alone in my room.. and suddenly i felt so sad… not because it’s heart month and i don’t have somebody to be with me on that day. but simply because i realized that a lot of changes that happen in my life. from the month of September up to this month, and one thing that i missed in my life is my FREEDOM, freedom to speak up what is inside me, to do the things that my inner self is telling me… that this are the things that can make me happy.

yes, i am free to do the things i want to do, go anywhere i want to go. a lot of people see me smiling but deep inside me is an empty space… i know that deep within me the real Dhia is on my own shelf, i can not go out and show the real world what’s within me. before i told myself that i am so tired to use the mask that i have in me… but then here i am again putting a mask so i can face the world… and show them how strong i am.

but then.. i know that after this days, one day i will face myself again and told Dhia, be yourself and be who you are… you don’t have to please everybody. simply because they will love you for who your are.