letting go and letting God… a simple words of wisdom. pero isang hamon sa bawat isa sa atin, nasa loob man ng kumbento/seminaryo o kahit sa simpleng buhay na meron tayo dito sa mundong magulo. dahil ang bawat isa sa atin ay nasa paghuhubog ng Diyos Ama.. noon pa man lagi ko ng sinasabi sa sarili ko na "let go and let God". pero aminado rin ako sa sarili ko na hindi ganun kadali ang magpaubaya sa Diyos kung wala kang sapat na pakikipaguganayan at pagtitiwala sa kanya.

sa mga oras na ito alam kong ang mga kasama ko noon sa kumbento ay nasa huling yugto na ng kanilang paghuhubog at klase sa sojourn. masakit at nakakalungkot isipin na hindi ko sila kasama.. at hindi rin nila ako kasama. at doon napasok ulit ang salitang "Let go and Let God". palayaain ko ang sarili ko sa pagiisip na sana… nasa kumbento pa ako, kasama ko pa sila…and let god do this things in his own time. sabi nga ni fr, chavz sa homily niya kahapon sa misa. "There is a time for everything, a time to laugh and a time to mourn…"

at ngayon sa kabila ng pangungulila sa mga taong naging kamanlalakbay ko… at patuloy na pagninilay sa buhay na aking tinatahak at tatahakin.. mahirap man ang hamon.. still i pray.. that he sustains me in my journey and i conitnue to Let Go and Let God.

dhia

I wanted love so very bad that I could almost taste it. And so I gave my all to you and hoped yo would not waste it. I laid awake the whole night long and wondered was I wrong. But when you woke and touched my face I knew that I belonged.

Belonging to someone I find is very necessary. The load is lighter on your mind when someone helps to carry. And even though I’m strong enough to make it on my own. I would not even care to cry to live my life aone.

For if I lived my life alone with no one to belong to. There’d be no one to pledge my heart or sing my song of love to. My melodies would soon dry up amd the words would leave me too. It all would come to pass if I could not belong to you

I wanted love so very bad that I could almost taste it. And when I give my all to you… I knew you would not waste it.

i feel so blessed to have this wonderful and beautiful day, i am facing the world with a beautiful smile… why? simply because someone makes me smile, makes me feel that i am important that i am loved… it sounds so childish and senti but then i am happy that this needs was filled and answered by the people i love… and people i dont expect to love me back.

thanks to Sr. Mela, Cielo, Cel and Alen for giving their time to me last night. Cel thank you for everyting, for being there for me at all times. I also want to say thank you to a friend who makes me smile even though we are apart from each other. thanks for making me inspired. thanks for my family and friends here in the outside world who are always there for me. and most of all thank God for guiding me at all times.

i know i have so many questions in my mind and in my heart but then.. in God’s time it would be answered. and if there are questions left un answered i know that this things happened because of a reason.

to all of you.. thank you for making my life so wonderful

heart’s day, they said that Feb. 14 is the special day where you can feel the love.. but then now here i am in my office. having a reflection ’bout LOVE. Love is the most beautiful gift that God gave us and we can give to others. Because of love we are save from our sins… and because of love we exist in this world.

Love is the reason why we smile, laugh even on the corniest joke that we heard from someone special to us… our family, friends and our special someone. Love is the reason why we accept others. we can understand, support and trust others.

Love is also the reason why someone’s life was lead into a wrong path… being married at a young age, killed someobody because of jealousy… The wrong expression of love that leads to a tragedy. Now in our generation the young one’s are so aggressive on their feelings. and they dont know how to handle it properly.

Love is not a sin… because people oftenly asked "kasalanan ba ang magmahal?’ afcourse not. to love is not a sin but instead a gift, a priviledge. it only become’s wrong when we did something…or expressed our love ven though we know that a lot of people would be hurt and will be affected.

to love and to be loved is the most wonderful feeling that you can experienced.. but then not all people who are in-love can express and must express their love to each other. because sometimes. there are some people who really love each other but cannot be together forever.

but then for me.. "we are precious in God and other people’s eyes simply because we are called to guve LOVE each day of our life."

Happy Valentines Day… Keep on smiline and give love even though you dont recieve love in return.

Love is the answer to all our problems… so let us love one another :=)

Wala lang, an expression to others.. but i means a lot. Wala lang… wala kang masabi dahil hindi mo maintindihan ang sarili mo. wala lang dahil, hindi mo alam kung paano mo sasabihin sa taong importante sa iyo na namimi-miss mo na siya, na mahal mo siya. Wala lang, dahil kahit na anong baling mo sa kanan at kaliwa walang lumalabas sa bibig mo. kundi WALA LANG. pero sa akin ang salitang Wala Lang ay nagsasabing I miss you, Importante ka sa akin, mahal kita. Kung ano man ang isipin mo.. sa kahulugan nito. teka lang, wag mong sasabihing wala lang. sabihin mo sa akin at baka sakaling, hindi na kita sagutin ng Wala lang. Mahirap intindihin, mahirap unawaun. pero iisa lang ang totoo.. gusto kong malaman ng mundo na WALA LANG.

last night i’m alone in my room.. and suddenly i felt so sad… not because it’s heart month and i don’t have somebody to be with me on that day. but simply because i realized that a lot of changes that happen in my life. from the month of September up to this month, and one thing that i missed in my life is my FREEDOM, freedom to speak up what is inside me, to do the things that my inner self is telling me… that this are the things that can make me happy.

yes, i am free to do the things i want to do, go anywhere i want to go. a lot of people see me smiling but deep inside me is an empty space… i know that deep within me the real Dhia is on my own shelf, i can not go out and show the real world what’s within me. before i told myself that i am so tired to use the mask that i have in me… but then here i am again putting a mask so i can face the world… and show them how strong i am.

but then.. i know that after this days, one day i will face myself again and told Dhia, be yourself and be who you are… you don’t have to please everybody. simply because they will love you for who your are.